“I miss you an aweful amount. Ok. I’m really not diggin the distance. Come cuddle and watch movies with me on this rainy day. Do I talk to everyone else like I talk to you? No. That was really what you dreamt about? That’s probably the cutest and sweetest thing I’ve ever heard. Maybe if that had been real I would have slept but it’s 8am and I never went to bed. I don’t know. Just can’t fall asleep. I feel exhausted but I can’t stop thinking. That feeling you know? Too busy sorting my brain I miss you singing me songs of our generation in a soulfull voice. I MISS YOU SO FUCKING MUCH. Baby baby baby. Are you ok? What’s wrong? I’m worried about you. I love you Ian. Id give anything to be with you right now. I would fit. Why darling? You will be soon.  Thats fine with me. Yeah it’s even better since it’s real life. I like holding hands. Im glad. I want to make you happy. I’m not letting you out of my sight for days. That just made me so happy. I can’t even explain. You’re perfect. That is all. That gave me butterflies. Goodnight boy. I love you. Doing the same thing every night. Of course you can. YEAAAHH. Of course. That song is the story of our lives. Yeah. And all Brand New songs. Ive had a nightmare everynight for about a month now. Aweful nightmares. Come be my dreamcatcher. Haha I wish I could have those kind of dreams. I think I’d be fine with that. Cheep chirp cheep? I dunnoooo…. Hey uhhhhh I miss youuuu. What have you been up to? Noooooo. I don’t think you’d have time or room for bad feelings to invade. YEAH I SAID IT. I miss your voice doll. How are you so cute? I can’t wait for you to come home. Because I want to hug you and hold you. This couch might actually be too big for me. That might make me the happiest girl ever. That’s all I want right now. Id give anything to be in your arms right now. Fuck. You just out-cuted yourself. And made me swoon. Ahahaha. I moooose yooooooo babybaby. Im sorry I’ve been so busy today. It was my brothers birthday. However. I love you. I‘ll try. You too darling. You have no idea. Seems that way. I sort of think about you all the time. Do you know yet when you’ll be arriving? And at what airport? Yesplease. Imissyousomuchbabybaby. I love you. Hey doll. You make me the happiest. Ill go with adorably obsessed. I’d like nothing else more. Ok. So be at the city county building? I might latch onto you when I see you and not let go. Heads up.  Ohyeah? You’d be fine with that? ICANTWAITTOLOVEONYOU! Are you excited to see me? I believe I have an idea. I’ve never missed someone so much.

 Well then one of us is lying… and it’s not me.”





yeah, i obviously just misunderstood what all you were saying. this feeling makes my skin burn. i’ll never again believe similar words. i’ll try to forget you, to let you fly away, i know you don’t want to stay with me. now you say you ain’t no bird. i was never anything in the first place.